It's been a few months since I admitted to myself (and all of my Facebook friends) that I am bisexual. Since then, I have really been trying to figure out what exactly that means for me. I seem to have strong sexual attractions to women, but very little sexual attraction to men. On the other hand, I do still feel romantically drawn to men, but I've never fallen in love with a woman. It could be that I've never allowed myself to fall in love with a woman because I was denying that part of myself for so long.
To some, my coming out as bisexual was not as surprising to them as it was to me. It's odd to me that who we think we are or how we think we come across to others is rarely how they actually see us and oftentimes, others can pick up on things about us that we seem oblivious to. Growing up, the idea of being bisexual never occurred to me. I believed I was straight and lived as such, crushing on certain boys at school, or whoever the latest celebrity teen hotty happened to be. I did everything I could to just be "one of the girls", but I never quite seemed to fit. Now it seems to make more sense why I never really felt like I fit in with all my straight friends.
It does make me wonder. What else might I be oblivious to that others can see so plainly?
